Wandering mind, sometimes, becomes your worst enemy. Settled in Life with everything you need around you. But Still, this mind is not at peace. Why so? what do I expect from myself? I am working, working hard. I am partying, partying harder. But then, still there is a gap somewhere to be filled in. All the things around me are moving in a positive direction. Sometimes, I feel like quitting everything and start a small shop somewhere in a distant location like Ladakh. This might take me away from the maddening crowd and competitive life of the cities.

Is getting away really a solution to the problem I am facing? Before that, can anyone tell me what the problem is with me? I just don’t know what is happening to me. Earlier, I didn’t have money so I wanted to work hard to make money. Now, I have enough money to live a peaceful life but I am still restless.

I wish to do something different and follow my dreams. I really wish to get out of this vicious circle of job & career. I wish to go on my own. I wish to be independent with no one sitting on my head to deliver something. I wish to be aimless for sometime.

Should I go for it ?

Sanjay Gandhi also worked towards India’s development, way back till 1977 but his journey was cut short as he was assassinated. The mystery still continues pointing towards Indira Gandhi, being the cause of his death. Sanjay was very aggressive in Indian politics and he has firm viewpoints which never matched with congress idealogy. Thus, he was never a probable congress candidate. Congress has always played vote back politics keeping Muslims vote banks in mind. Congress always had a deep rooted history including politics which led to division of India and creating a “headache” called Pakistan.

Varun Gandhi, son of Sanjay Gandhi, is a grown up boy now and trying to establish himself in the battlefield of Indian Politics. But, being a young blood and a novice in this field, Congress just pulled all the strings and got him arrested under NSA (National Security Act). What was his mistake? He just spoke the truth, he just made speeches mentioning an issue closer to every heart. He just re-iterated his father’s viewpoints. If you remember, Sanjay Gandhi promoted vascatomy for every man who has more than 2 children. This was important to control the fast paced growing population of India leading to rise in community politics. He wanted to control Muslims who were running Madrassas just to propagate the message of fanatism against India.

Sanjay Gandhi was never against Muslims. He was against Muslim idealogy of working against India. And Indira Gandhi always counted on Muslims for votes. This was the main cause of rift between the mother and the son. So much So, that Maneka Gandhi, wife of Sanjay was thrown out of the Gandhi household after Sanjay’s death.

Congress has always played divisive politics. Nehru, an atheist, played this politics to become the first Prime Minister of India. He was very much instrumental in creation of Pakistan. Nehru had a fallout with Patel on this issue. If Varun Gandhi is behind bars for making speeches, Nehru actually did the job 60 years back in 1947 and still, people worship him. Why is NSA(or similar acts) not invoked against Nehru ?

Congress lost the war to China in 1965 and accepted defeat and in turn, lost quite much of grounds in India. shouldn’t Congress be brought to court for that?

Indira Gandhi played divisive politics. She had put the whole country in Emergency. Congress was the main reason of riots against Sikhs in 1984 after Indira Gandhi invoked Operation Bluestar. thousands of sikhs were dragged out of their homes in Delhi and burnt alive on road but Jagdish Tytler and Sajjan Kumar are still roaming free contesting elections but Varun Gandhi is put behind bars for just one speech. Why is NSA (or similar acts) not invoked against India Gandhi?

Sonia Gandhi, and the leading lady of Congress did not relent her Italian citizenship until she had to join politics. She forcibly did it under pressue due to political reasons. Isn’t that hypocracy? If she is so much concerned about India and she loved the country, why did she take 20 bloody years to realize that its her own country and she should accept Indian citizenship.

Varun is the young boy of India who has passion to work for the country. He is fighting against all the ills Congress has brought to India. But he is being suppressed for being vocal. Rahul Gandhi is recruiting young educated indians. Is Bittu, recruited in Punjab, by Rahul educated enough? he did not even complete his schooling. This is the vision of Rahul Gandhi of educated India.

History speaks for itself that Congress never did good for India. Congress is nothing but a family run business and Gandhis’ think that the whole country is their business campus.

Isn’t it known that Rajiv Gandhi supprted LTTE movement in its early stages but then it grew so big that they killed Rajiv himself. Quattrocchi left India unscathed in Bofors case and he could never be brought to book. That’s what Congress is all about.

I am not against Muslim community. I am against Muslim fanatics residing in India. They eat in India but talk praise of Pakistan. Some of my good friends are Muslims and they will remain my friends. But what about the rest who think that they are minority and India is not their country. I am sure India is the only place where Muslims live the most peaceful life. Muslims in Pakistan also cannot afford the luxuries and independence India provides.

It’s Holi today. This reminds of one of the legendary characters of Indian Cinema “Gabbar Singh”. His every dialogue the movie “Sholay” has become immortal like his character. But even till now, every one considers him as a villain. He is considered as a character with negative shades. But now, its time to change your perception, your outlook towards him.

“Shrimaan Gabbar Singh Ji Maharaj” was a man of class. During his lifetime, he gave so much to his people, the people of Ramgarh. He was a man who started working since his childhood. He worked hard to reach a level of position after which he left for God’s abode just to leave the world like an orphan. He grew in his life under extreme conditions and gradually, built his business empire of Security and Protection Services single handedly. He fought against the law of the land for the benefit of the masses. He handpicked his employees. All the employees of his company, whether it was Sambha or Kalia, loved him so much that they never left his company until death did them apart. They were just like one big family. They provided security to the people of Ramgarh at minimal cost. They never asked money from people, just that they used to get food items like tonnes of rice/dal/wheat etc so that they could live. Quite a few times, people themselves, used to pay him with gold and donate money for his company.

“Shrimaan Gabbar Singh Ji Maharaj” was a person of high moral character. He loved and promoted Indian art and culture. Whether its Folk music and dance by “Helen” on “Mehbooba Mehbooba” or indian classical by “Basanti (Hema Malini)” on “Jab Tak hai Jaan”, Gabbar Singh ji took utmost care that no “bloody Kutta (Dharmendra)” could hamper the performances. He used to organize performances for his company and his employees loved the dances so much that they stopped drinking and even broke the beer bottles. “Basanti”, to show her gratitude towards Gabbar Singh and to show her art of dancing even danced over broken glass.

“Shrimaan Gabbar Singh Ji Maharaj” even used to like Indian festivals, Holi being his favorite. He could never wait for Holi and asked “Holi Kab Hai / Kab Hai Holi”, just to go to Ramgarh with loads of gifts. He had such a good sense of humour that he used to keep laughing everytime and cracking jokes. He even played pranks with Kalia.

As every good man has enemies, even Gabbar Singh Ji had an enemy in Thakur Baldev Singh. Thakur could never see Gabbar Singh Ji prosper and he hired two goons Jai & Veeru to kill Gabbar Singh Ji. Jai & Veeru were two small time criminals who got ready to kill Gabbar Singh just for few rupees. They were so characterless that Jai used to have bad intentions about Radha, Thakur’s daughter-in-law and Veeru eyed on village belle Basanti. Veeru was a drunkard too who did mischiefs and troubled the whole village. When Gabbar Singh ji tried to control them, they attacked him back of the auspicious day of Holi. And as the saying goes that God call all good people back to him early, Gabbar Singh Ji also had to go as Jai & Veeru assassinated him during a bloody battle where Gabbar Singh Ji tried to save Ramgarh from the clutches of Thakur..

There are so many incidents and things to talk about Gabbar Singh Ji… but my eyes are getting teary while just writing about him. The world is missing him so much on this auspicious day of Holi.

Bolo “Shrimaan Gabbar Singh Ji Maharaj” Ki Jai…..

and here I leave you with a rare video of Gabbar Singh Ji enjyoing a folk dance performed by “Helen”

Bura Na Mano, Holi hai…

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Many of you must have seen the movie by now and given out your reviews. But I am not sure how many of you felt the movie. I just felt that everything that was depicted in movie was just so real. It felt like I was there watching everything in front of my eyes.

I still remember the good old days of going to Ramlila maidan to watch ramlila during the month of october. I still remember Jalebis and samosas from the bylanes. I still remember the warmth and friendliness of neighbours, the night outs doing “Jagran” to praisa Mother Goddess(Maa Vaishno Devi), and ofcourse, the pomp and show of marriages and celebration round the year. These are just a part of many sweet memories I have living in myself.

But, I also remember the rumour of Monkey Man spread out everywhere years back. I was in school then. I still remember the Hindu Sikh riots and Operation Bluestar. I still remember the Hindu Musilm riots that broke out quite a few times. I still remember myself not going to school because of an uproar against Mandal Commission, the first iself-immolation bid tried in a full public view by a student named ”Rajeev Goswami” against caste based reservation. And, these are also just a few of many bitter memories which left a scar on my mind.

Isn’t the message given in this movie a reality? There is a monkey man living inside all of us. We are the ones who make or break the system. No one has seen anything but we still fight for the unknown. The problem does not exist. We create a problem because we have enough time to waste our time resolving this self created, unknown, non-existent problem. The politicians are just looking for an excuse to garner votes and we, the people, of India give them this bloody excuse. Then, we blame the politicians for their backstabbing.

See yourself in the mirror and you’ll see the face of the monkey man instead of yours. I just remembered the song which we used to sing as a prayer in school and now, it seems that this song is the need of the hour.

“Aye Maalik Tere bande hum, Aise ho Hamaare Karam,
Neki par chale, aur badi se dare, Taaki haste hue nikle dum”

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He was in his deep thoughts. Different thoughts were criss-crossing his mind randomly. Sometime, he thought about work or the other time, he thought about his ambitions and aspirations. He was wondering which way his life was heading to. Sometimes, it seemed that everything is perfect and nothing could be better than this. But then, at the same time, it was just so much away from perfection. Is it bad not to be content with whatever you have? Is it bad to continuously aspire for more, crave for it and have sleepless nights just thinking to change the way of life?

He was trying to find these answers everyday and inability to do so was making his life more miserable. Even when he is out with friends, he is not with them. Friends think that he is not in his control and they get embarrassed. But then, he is just so different from others. He is not looking to earn more money. He just wishes to do something, be someone in life. He just wishes to be “that someone”. Money just follows when you are “that someone”.

He lives on a different plane. He lives in a z-order which the world see as negative prints. People don’t like him because he and chivalry are just opposites. But does this matter? Does it really matter to be courteous, soft, artificial and be someone you are not? Does it really matter to live a life which you don’t like? Does it really matter to do a job you don’t like?

Walking down the lane, there is always a dead end, The dead end with a big wall. This wall is just too big to jump over. People expect him to turn around and take another route. But he wishes to bring down that wall. He picks up a hammer and starts hitting. But the wall does not seem to come down. He continues for years and years But the wall has not end.

The effort is still on because he believes that the realization of his thoughts are just across that wall. This is the only way he can get what he wants. Let people be thinking of whatever they wish. One day, these people will forget what they don’t like in him and will proudly, try to associate themselves with him. And he will never forget them. He will embrace them always.

It’s his life and what decision he makes are his own.

“ Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried something new – Albert Einstein”

Staring constantly at one corner of my room, I am just blank. Life is all about, what Obama is asking for, “Change”. It is changing everyday. Sometimes, I think those were the days when I used to get up early and go to school, play with friends in the evening, used to do homework after much scolding, and then, watching TV for some time. The life was so much simpler. In those days, I wanted to grow up and go to office. I wished to earn. Now, I wish to go back in those days.

Why do I wish those things which I’ll never get again in my life?

The routine still continues everyday. I still get up in the morning and go to office, work the whole day, chit chat with friends,come back home, watch TV, do some stuff on Lap top and go to bed. The school routine used to have a change. There was always something new every day, every month,every year. From School to college to work, the journey was just so exciting only to end in a lull of office for the rest of life.

Wish that Life could be like a roller coaster. Going up and down, up and down, up and down. I know its a pain when the life reaches the bottom, but then, it brings happiness and smile when it bounces back and up much higher than before.

Jo kuch tha woh khuda tha, kuch na hota to khuda hota,
Duboya mujhko hone ne, main na hota to kya hota.

[Everything is God, and Vaccum is also God]
[My existence ruined me, nothing was better]

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“Mukaddar ka sikandar haste hue gaya tha, main bajate hue jaana chahta hun”

What are the ten things you’ll do before you die????

Never thought so… Right?? doesn’t matter. whatever you do, make sure that those are the ten best things you ever wanted in your life. The movie has just left an immortal impression on my mind. I’ll never forget this movie for sure. And who knows I might end up in preparing my “Things to do before I die”.

Bigdi kismat bhi sanwar jaayegi
Zindagi taraane khushi ke gaayegi
Tere Hote kiska hai dar
Tu duaon ka hai ghar

Yun to main sabse nyara hun
Tera maa, main dulaara hun
Duniya mein jeene se zyada uljhan hai maa
Tu hai Amar ka jahaan
Tu gussa karti hai, bada achha lagta hai
Tu kaan pakadti hai, badi zor se lagta hai

The song in the movie is just too touchy that even a very practical, emotionless, hard hearted, city guy like me also has his eyes closed and limbs numbed.

Won’t talk much.. Just see the video and have a sleepless thoughtful introspective night…

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And, here goes another one, Alvida.

Koi waqt ke aagey haara haara sa,
Koi pyar mein phirta maara maara sa,
dil ke rishton mein hi kyun dard hamesha milta hai,
aur kyun kaanton pe hi phool sukhon ka khilta hai,